Joy,
sparks in your chest.
Excitement,
pleasure at its best.

Suspense,
slightly masochistic, in fact.
Eagerness,
conflicting with societal rules.

Anxiety,
boredom creeping in.
Worry,
distance expanding…

Flustered flustered panic attack flustered gnawing pit what ifs and stress and oh nos and oh mans and halting. sudden. realisations. and freezing pain, piercing and tearing and breaking and oh so very slowly… falling away… breaking… apart.. cracks emerging…

Denial?
Laughing insanely.
(false?) Reassurances,
we’re good for the future

(really?)

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