What is this
In between my lungs and at the centre of my lower spine.
Coldness appears like the chill unexpected at 4am after a night of tossing in humid Asia.
Mental tears forming and pooling
Fear, burrowing, curling.
Slightest needles of agonising icy spears jabbing incessantly behind and above the breasts
Breathing getting tougher as nostrils seem to tighten and air gets sweeter.
Shrapnel sweetness of air, loneliness pains, clenched muscles in the calves and butt.
Loneliness beyond romantic and platonic friends and partners.
Loneliness in this universe, always expanding never ceasing to stop or slow down and each connection growing steadily further.
God is infinite. Is there and mind proportionate stretch of me between Him as the universe speeds on by?