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Escapade bursts

Been having more nightmares recently. The types that linger even though you’re dog tired daily and forget important details of your everyday waking life regularly.

1) He was raping girls, 2 of which were literally doll sized. 1 was a young adult. They started spilling vomit from their vaginas after he was finished and we went down on them. The older lady tried to push him away, shocked and repulsed but he pushed on. She eventually gave in and engaged in the fellatio as well.

2) I will update this when I remember. A little woozy right now

3) I have been telling myself that I deserve to be treated wonderfully by my future partner. Went to bed with drowsy fever medicine during the afternoon.

I told my friend that I deserve to be treated well. He leaned over, hand on the back of my neck to pull me in to kiss me. I pushed him away. He told me, “For someone who has so many criterias, you should have lower standards.”

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Escapade – 11th October 

My mom was angry, furious at me and in spite, I picked up the handgun, pointed it at my stomach upside down, and pulled. 

No recoil no heat, just pain. A very bad cramp, seeping blood that doesn’t drip. I felt the bullet within my stomach, pulling my centre of gravity towards it so my soul and mind and fear were buried in its middle.

M made his appearance again, offering to send me to the hospital. I get in the cab with him, the bullet now lodged deep like an unborn child, haunting my future. We switched cars, why? But the next driver was a policeman and I was scared to mentioned I shot myself with a gun, yet he waved it off with embarrassment, as though mentioning my use of a gun to hurt myself was shameful to talk about.

I lean on M’s shoulder, seeking comfort and love, and he leans his head upon mine. Home. Peace. Huge wrench of pain and doubled over.

Back to a house, everyone there. My mother was angry and not sympathetic.

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My family is running, we’re all running. It started out nice and slow, taking shifts as waitresses, my sister and I. Then waking at midnight after my sister’s night shift, hearing her get ready to leave the house. She wanted to listen to my mom read stories to some children. I rush to get dressed and follow.

I don’t fully remember what happens here, but I know whistling was involved and being chased by this one person. Creature actually, chasing us, wanting to kill us, eat us. It got caught. But right when we were safe, turns out it could switch bodies and we were attacked by another from the crowd. Chains, swinging police, metal leash, swinging from the ceiling, huge date rape drug, sex before it is sentenced to death.

I’m running. Find two others, they’re my family now. We’re safe. And then he decides to fucking whistle, fuck dammit and now we run, Sprint through the mall and there’s 2 of then now chasing after us, blood thirsty, blood lust. My family, again. Gone.

Run into a house, my relatives, huge huge family. I tell them to keep quiet, hide, lower ourselves. There’s 3 of them outside, trying to get in. Never whistle. Don’t even make a sound. Door locked. Gate outside locked, they don’t seem to be coming in. We start to relax, my family fights. So loud, shouting, the kind of anger that sears your throat, you go mute from anger before a torrent of fire pours out. My cousin walks through the door with some friends. They opened the door. The creatures come forward and we scream, scramble for the small storage room. Press against the door lock it, I’m there with my uncle pressing against the door. Crying, “I’ve never had my family last longer than 24 hours.” He looks at me and says that it’ll be different this time. The young ones decide to throw pens and brushes on the floor at the door, trying to slip the creatures up. They pour blue water out under the door, hoping to drown them, deter them. Blue water seeps back in from the top, “STOP!” but it’s too late, the door bends at the force of outside waters trying to flood in. Like a plastic tarp, why is the door like a plastic tarp nothing is helping we can’t keep the water out and Woosh. Our room is moving. Moving out the house. Landing on the road outside the house. A plastic room. The creatures advance we run next door begging for access.

They said yes. Gorgeous mansion. That was too easy. But we need to run. We run in.

I run up the stairs. So many levels but I keep running my friend following behind. Try to hide in a huge grandfather clock just like in the stories hide in there, try to push the clockwork manually so they won’t suspect.

“What are you doing?”
It’s him. I’m clearly not even fitting. Butt in, body contorted, door still wide open. Sigh. I tried.
We walk to the railings and look down over the ground floor of the mansion. We talk, he asks why I’ve been running, I said I wanted my family alive, I wanted to keep them all alive. We laugh and joke and he teases and smiles. My friend comes over and she jokes and laughs, leaning on the railings.

You shouldn’t lean like that, it’s not safe.
It’s alright.
He looks at her. And smiles. He flips her over the railing and she falls to the ground floor.

Creatures are everywhere tearing apart my family. There’s yellow liquids running down their legs. Urine, I’m told. One creature is wiping the yellow off its feet, with a swaddled infant. He casually tosses the baby aside after he is done. I’m there, looking, and one of the creatures, the older matronly figure, gives me a white bar. Have this instead. It’s coconut and some other gelatinous matter. Two of them look at it and each other, before staring curiously at me at the matronly creature.

Sitting at a glorious dining table, all creatures seated around, talking, having tea. “He likes you. Lord _______.” I recall him almost putting a baby hamster in his mouth, and seeing my face, he puts it away. The crunch is almost similar to that of the coconut in the bar.

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I dreamt I said I love you

One night I dreamt we were running away.
Hiding in the house, away from the thugs.
They were dangerous,
they kept us hostage before we escaped.
They had guns.

We ran into the kitchen when they shot through the doors.
I crouched behind the ovens while you laid on the floor,
curled up eyes shut, arms overhead.
One step, one shot, and you were dead.

He came towards me,
gun outstretched,
bullet pointing at my skull.

Before he pulled
I said a prayer.
Not wishing to be in Heaven,
not begging to be safe from Hell,
no remorse or regrets, no desperation; in fact

I said I love You, God.

Everything went dark

Before I opened my eyes to life again.

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Escapade 17 April

I’m rushing to a literature exam and I have no pens, so we’re rushing, me Sam and… Someone. Theo? Ran into a side shop and bought two pens. Found out they bought wholesale from another shop that’s close to where I live, and I make a mental note to buy from the supplier directly next time.

There’s a room and… Paintings on the wall. Someone’s parents tell a guy to remove this painting and it’s about two women loving each other. Someone comes over and pats me on the back. “I know, it’s okay. One day.”

It’s raining and we still need to get to school. Out pops my tiny umbrella and I’m sharing it with the person. And then Sam is getting wet and YAY I brought my really big umbrella too. This older guy near us asked if I have Everything in my bag and I said yes. He was amused and I was confident. We went on our way.

In school, huge courtyard, 4 buildings surrounding reminiscent of ancient China palaces. There’s a special deer above on the roof of the building on our right. And a guy we know on our left. He has a contraction that is menacing and extendable. He wants to kill the doe, the fawn. The fawn has antlers that extend and split till it has a whole antenna up there. I tell him No and he tries to grab me with his weapon. Right before we reach the steps of the building ahead, he tells me he can use me to kill the doe. Suddenly a jolt of lightning surges from the mouth of his weapon, bounces off my wallet in my right hand and slices through the doe. I scream in agony as it fell, as I ran up the stairs away, crying, oh agony oh my fault oh it died because of me oh agony oh oh oh why why oh.

I found him and confronted him. He said it’s cause he liked me. He gets more insane more forceful more illogical and intimidating and scary. “Why did you wear that and look so sexy then!” A tank top and shorts. He’s walking closer and forcing me down onto the ground and he tries to kiss me. I lay motionless, hoping it would deter him, wondering why he was doing this when he knew I had a boyfriend, afraid that my not pushing him off was my fault and that I secretly wanted it even though my heart is filled with fear and my body is stiff and not reacting to his advances and touch.

My nightmares feel like memories. Like events that happened just yesterday or a while back, and the fuzziness of recollection is just my failing memory. Ask me about something a week back and that same fuzziness floats over anything I’m recalling. Sometimes, the dreams feel more like reality due to the emotions connected to them then the emotionless recollection of true events in my waking life. That scares me.

3rd Nightmare in a row

I wouldn’t say it was a nightmare as Hollywood imagines it. No scary monsters, no sudden ghost or monster popping up and scaring me awake – though I had one a couple months back, had to get a hug in the middle of the night from fear – but these three nights have been filled with nightmares that are intensely stressful scenarios.

I dreamt of Chris last night. I was out with friends at… a park of sorts. He was across the lake, or on the lake canoeing. He was bigger, more muscular to an extent but clearly denser and wider. His hair was a crazy afro mess. It was uncomfortable seeing him walking around constantly flexing his biceps. He came over, sat down, and tried to be conversational with everyone, but me. Stares of pity filled the table and I sat in quiet discomfort, minimal eye contact and stiff body posture. Finally got up and left, half running away from him. From them.

He follows, so what else can I do but hop onto the train and hope to lose him? He follows.

Next thing I know, I’m in a courtyard, and using a balloon float up towards a flaky pastry cloud, coasted with sugary gloss like Ritz’s Strudels. I’m not just literally running away from my problems, I’m flying away from it. He becomes Jon in how I was going to find him at his place, but it’s complicated to journey there.

Then I’m at my booth, my magazine’s booth. But who are these girls selling our magazine’s stuff? We have merchandise… we have MERCHANDISE? These girls are punks, they don’t care for the magazine, they don’t care for the store. Why are they here, what’s happening. I take charge and give notes on what needs to be rearranged and sold and explained or given descriptions. Nothing, they listen to nothing and no one.

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Escapade 1st and 2nd April

I dreamt we fought, me against her and him. In an apartment, parents not around. We fought, I wanted to escape, we fought. He came closer and I wanted to scream, my heart raced and I was scared, I didn’t want him to touch me like he had before in past dreams. I wanted to escape. So I screamed and shouted and cried hard, tears streaming and welling thick viscous painful tears pouring out my eyes and I escape. But not before he tore my Eragon to pieces and they broke my key in half and my heart was torn by their cruelty. My heart was broken by their betrayal by the hurt.

My friends and I in a bird enclosure. Beautiful delicate birds of shades, such gorgeous shades, trusted me and fluttered down, pitching on this outstretched finger. Thus creature appeared, on the ground crawling an insect it was larger than my hand and it crawl towards me. I was frightened but my friends scoffed, they rebuked my fear and rejected my fear. I got bit. I killed it. I ran and another came, a different one but it came. Bidding behind a fenced door I tried to slam the door against it and succeeded in trapping it under the door, repeatedly flattening and crushing it. It can’t get to me now. But I’m bad for behaving so cruelly. “They’re just animals. How could you kill them.”

Walk away. Tears, anger, hard to come but constricted throat. Stairwell, nurse. “Your friends told me you were bitten. We have to bring you to the hospital now. Is you leg numb?”

It was.

2nd day in the hospital. Shins oozing blue pus, the bite hollowed out now. My leg is sinking inwards, infection and carved out. Blue pus or long mini tubes like the whites of blackheads forced out.

I’m scared.

I screamed angrily in my dream.

Screaming so hard
That anger boiling over from the
Pits of my stomach
A curling and swirling
Lava of tears and frustration.

It shoots up in an
Explosion of insanity
And incredulity and
I may not know what happened in that dream
But now I’m screaming and
There is no sound
No noise

It slips upwards
Up my throat and
Trickling through my teeth
Past my tongue
Beyond the lips and

There is nothing
Just red face
And thick brows full
Harrowed and burrowed.
Veins throbbing and
Bursts of twitching madness

Things I dream about after a night of drinking.

There was a thick smear of cookie butter on the side of the plate. Ohhhh God it’s so good. -drags cookie along the cookie butter- SO GOOD. She stands there nodding in obsessive agreement.

My mom sits at the foot of my bed. We’re talking about… Making good choices in men? Probably something related to the breakup. She starts confessing, that Secret they wouldn’t tell me till I’m old enough. There was a Japanese guy before dad and he was Very convincing. He made a lot of promises and she just needed to escape, so she gave herself away.

We were going overseas together, 10 of us, the MXA group. I packed and headed to the airport, only realising halfway that I hadn’t packed essentials like shower gel and detergent etc. Weird break and I’m at a really fancy house with Mr and Mrs Rosemary and she’s sweet and he’s charming and there’s flirting. He appears when we’re shopping and disappointment hits when she appears too.I argued over the amount of detergent needed in that little shop and finally found a Swedish brand that had two segments, one for normal clothing and one for stained clothing, for that special time of the month. Had to get Chris to ask David for me, and we were chill.

I also dreamt the night before that A and I were chill. I wonder what to make of all these

1st Escapade of 2014

Adrenaline spiked her ragged breathing as she ran through the deserted walkways. Encapsulated with glass and a steady supply of oxygen, this enclosure was formed to keep humans visiting from other base planets safe from the poisonous atmosphere. However, the passing decades have been cruel to the structure, leaving it decrepit and worn, poisonous strains of ivy grows all over the glass walkways threatening to crack them. These thoughts flitted across her brains briefly before she turned her attention to the matter at hand: Escaping.

Dashing down the exposed walkways, she made the effort to run down ever obscure sidewalks, passing by multitudes of empty lecture theatres and functions rooms. Peeling walls and broken doors flashed by her as she searched for a way out, the ragged breathing behind her growing heavier and closer. She sneaked a peak behind to watch a progress, hopeful that she had outrun it, but to her dismay she caught a glimpse of his porcelain blue foot. 

Keep running. Don’t stop, run till your lungs give out, don’t let it catch you.

With a sharp turn, she found herself in a separate walkway, linking the desolate centre to another one across the island. On the right she could see a man surfing on the planet’s cool, blue waters. Never stopping, never falling. He just rode the waves as if they were an extension to his form. Behind her, the creature shrieked, a gigantic rhinoceros with a smooth, porcelain blue body, charging around the walkways desperate to find her.

She walked to the other centre slowly, afraid that it might be a trap, afraid of the creatures she might see. As she pushed open the doors slowly, a torrent of sound and chatter bombarded her. Blinking, she saw a multitude of creatures walking around, books in hand and bags on their bags. It seemed like she had found a living, thriving educational institute; perfect for hiding and finding her way out.

Running into a lecture theatre labeled music, she climbed to the highest level of seats and slouched in her seat. The lecturer began to speak, “Who can tell me what rhythm is? Let’s see, let me choose someone I’ve never seen before. Ah yes, you at the end of the centre top row! Tell me, what is rhythm?”

“Uh. I’m not too sure.” Drat the convenience of this scenario.

As the lecturer turned away in search of her next victim, she turned to the creature on her left and asked is she had ever heard of Earth.


That’s the name of my planet, I’m a human being, have you heard of us before? I need to get back.

Why wouldn’t I know what a human being is? We’ve been travelling across space and inhabiting distant planets for years, sweetie. I’m a human being myself!

She turned to look and true enough, the girl looked like a human being, safe for her abnormally large pupils. 

At that moment, the creature walked into the theatre, his body form similar to a human’s, but still covered in that sickly sheen of porcelain blue.

Who’s that… man?

That’s the vice-principle. He hates immigrants, wants to clear them off the planet. Why, has he been after you?

She ignored the questioned and listened to the lecturer, writing down some interesting note on the back of her notepad. Towards the end of the lecture, the creature stalked out, and a word materialised on her notepad.

What does this mean?

The girl blinked hard at the word and murmured, “That means he’s no longer looking for you. That according to him, you never existed and are off the planet.”

They head off to the mart, bracing the drizzle in their pure white uniforms. The girl had brought her friends along which consists of four other guys and two girls. More of an abandoned warehouse with shelves of goods packed randomly, the girls started weaving in and out of the ‘stores’, looking to buy some stuff before class started again. The makeup was dismal and the shoes salesperson was rude, but the upside was when one of the girls exclaimed, “Guys, pot brownies!”

“I have to find the spaceship, I must go home.”

The others nodded and they headed off to the taxi stand.

The taxis in that planet are teleportation vehicles, and getting into the taxi led to them walking along a winding pathway tot he top of the spaceship. 

HOLD ON TO THE RAILINGS, GUYS! She screamed as the spaceship began its ascent. Along the glass windows, pictures of people and the stories they wrote while on the spaceship appeared, each one succeeding the next in date, the content getting shorter, more clipped and hopeless.

Climbing upwards, they found a staircase before them, winding down and completely familiar. They found themselves in a holding room next to a door at the bottom of the stairs. The spaceships jolted to a stop as the doors flung open. A stream of people start walking down the stairs and out the door. Where did they come from? Are they even human beings are one of the strains so commonly found on the distant planets housing our species?

How will you guys remember me?

I took a photo, I’ll always have it on my phone.

Here’s My phone, take photos of yourselves. I never want to forget you all.





Sorry for the horrible structure and the lack of flow, not to mention the horrendous language! My attention was more on remembering the dream as it was rather than really making it into a story. You can kind of see where I stopped telling it as a story and started spouting it factually. 

Here’s to a great 2014 with interesting dreams ahead!

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